quote of the day

"When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us.”

-Helen Keller

this is one of my all time favorite quotes. we sometimes dwell on the irreversible past too much instead of looking forward to see the cloud's silver lining. when someone closes a door in your face, a door you may have been counting on for so much of your future happiness, it is difficult to feel anything but disappointment. take, for example, blatant rejection. whether its by someone you love or an opportunity you were really counting on, rejection hurts.

it can take a lot of courage to put yourself in a situation where rejection is just as probable as acceptance. there's this one guy, he's one of my best friends. he has been with me through the worst times i've yet to face in my life. and my feelings for him go way beyond the line that friends should have for each other. i love spending time with him because he can make me so much happier than i am with anyone else. he brings out a side of me that i really love.

well, i'm the kind of girl that wears my heart on my sleeve, so i'm sure my feelings were extremely obvious. i'm also a bit of a flirt, so maybe he just thought of it as normal. but one day, we were having a conversation in which he completely shut down the idea of there ever being a "he and i," or at least for a while. i was devastated, but couldn't let it show.

i felt like a door i was so hopeful i could walk into had shut in my face and knocked me out. where do i go now? there's tons of other guys, but none that make me feel so alive and carefree. he makes me feel infinite. i know i need to stop dwelling on the past; i can't change the way people feel about me without changing who i am. i know that i have to look and see what other, better doors this recent rejection has opened for me. but that's so hard to do sometimes.